Can you believe it’s June already?! So much has happened in the last 6 months, and yet it’s all flown by so quickly!
Looking at the calendar right now is bittersweet. In 25 days I’ll be turning 25, but that’s not what has me feeling this way…
In August my munchkin is starting Kindergarten!
When Benny was a baby I remember talking to my mom and saying how I couldn’t wait ’till he was old enough for me to read him all my favorite books, and my mother replied “Oh Lua…it goes by so fast! Enjoy now.” At the time, her statement sort of irritated me (because I can get a little defensive at times) and because I know I was experiencing some post-partum depression and I didn’t really feel like I was enjoying every moment as I should have been.
The truth is…I have been blessed to be able to be with Benny practically all-day-every-day for the past 5 years. I’ve rearranged my whole life to be his mother and I really have loved every minute of it! Before him I was happy being busy at the office 40+ hours a week but now…I can replay 5 years of silly smiles, cooking-pot drum sessions, rolling down grassy hills, beach days and lazy days when we’d lay in bed in the middle of the afternoon and he’d sigh and say “I love you mom” in a tone of voice that is just so absolute.
I was the little social butterfly who ripped herself away from her mother’s arms on the first day of Kindergarten to join other kids leaving my mom wanting me to stay in her arms for just one more second.
We were talking about it a while ago and she confessed to me that she cried in the car a little after she dropped me off. I know I’m going to do the same.
Benny is cautious and thoughtful and takes his time to open up to new people. I worry about him being overwhelmed or intimidated by the whole idea of Kindergarten. (He’s been in part-time Pre-K, but it’s montessori based so it’s a lot more individualized than traditional classrooms.) I doubt he’s not going to run off and play like I did…but he IS a big boy and I know he’s going to put on a brave face.
As I write all this, I also think about how he could totally surprise me and be gung-ho for his first day. (Crossing my fingers on that one.)
But I AM excited for him…for all the things he’ll learn and all the friends he’ll make.
As for me turning 25 this month?! Well…I guess it’s time I kick this quarter-life crisis into high gear!